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"Rei, you're being ridiculous."
Here I am, sitting in my bedroom, being told by all my friends that I'm
over-reacting. That's easy for them to say. They didn't go through what I
did a week ago.
Ami's standing in front of me. Makoto and Minako are sitting on the floor,
and Usagi's sitting next to me on the bed. I really wish she wasn't sitting
there. She wouldn't be eitherif she knew
"Ami, I can't help it. I'm afraid to go to sleep at night. I'm afraid I'll
dream it again."
"Rei, even Sigmund Freud said 'sometimes a cigar is just a cigar.' It was
just a dream. It doesn't mean you'rethat way."
"Easy for you to say. Have you ever had a dream where you were with another
girl?!"Ami's face instantly turns bright red. She looks away quickly.
"I'm sorry guys, I'm hogging the floor."
She quickly sits down beside Makoto, who leans over and whispers to her.
"It's none of our business right?"
Usagi takes my hand in hers. I break into a cold sweat. I'm afraid to look
at her. What if she sees?
"Rei, you called us here to help, and from the looks of things you could
really need it. Not to sound insulting, but you look like Hell."
"Good," I say to her, "I'd hate to feel this bad and have it be my little
secret."
"Rei, I'm worried about you. We all are. You can't go on like this. What
happened in this dream? Talk to us? Please?""II can't."
"Then what did you call us over for?!" Minako is kneeling in front of me
now, "Now look Rei, I can't speak for everyone else, but I get just a little
tired when you call us out here, and then you don't tell us what we need to
know so we can help you. Now do you tell us what's up, or do we leave?"
I look her square in the eyes. I'm not afraid to look at her."Leave. Please."
Minako and the other girls stand up.
"Okay, but you're only lying to yourself if you think you can deal with this
on your own. The fact that you called us at all proves that."
The girls walk out the door, with Minako staying behind for a moment.
"Look Rei, Usagi was right. You can't go on like this."
She puts her hand on my lap."We're here. Call us anytime."
"I know Minako. I guess I'm not as ready to talk about this as I thought.
But thanks for being there for me.""Always Rei. You know that."
She finally leaves and I'm left alone with my thoughts. What am I going to
do? Minako was right. I look terrible and I feel even worse. I'm so
tired, I can barely walk straight, much less think straight. My arms and
legs feel like tree trunks, my coordination is shot, I feel like I'm going
to burst out crying any second, and for what?
I can still see it, as clear as if it were just happening. I can't escape
it. It happened a week ago; the dream, I mean.
I see myself. It's like I'm having one of those out-of-body experiences you
always hear about. I was standing in a room. I can't remember one detail
of that room, but I could see myself, standing there. She was there with
me. We were both wearing our uniforms.
What happened next shocks me even now. We walked closer, wrapped our arms
around each other and started kissing. It looked like I was ten feet away
watching this but I could feel her mouth pressed against mine. I could feel
our breasts touching and rubbing against each other through our uniforms. I
could feel her fingers fluttering up and down my back.
She unbuttoned my jacket and slid it over my shoulders, letting it fall to
the floor. She lifted her arms as I pulled her uniform shirt over her head
and dropped it behind her. Then we started kissing again as she slowly
unbuttoned my shirt and slid it off. We unfastened each other's skirts and
let them slide down our legs to our ankles. Stepping out of them, we then
started caressing each other through our bras and panties, gradually
removing them.
We lay down beside each other and started caressing each other again. Her
hand found my clit and started stroking it slowly, almost painfully slowly.
I twisted and pinched her nipples while my other hand was rubbing her own
smooth sex. Eventually, she rolled over and lay on top of me. Then we
rolled back over so I could lay on top of her. And we kept rolling back and
forth like that for some time. I don't know how long this lasted, but I
know we never stopped kissing the whole time. It was as if our mouths were
locked together.
The pleasure was starting to get to me. I was losing control. Then we
finally broke our kiss and just looked at each other, panting and moaning.
She slid away from me and spread her legs wide, beckoning me to do the
same. I spread my legs just as wide as she did and slid over. Our clits
touched and we began pumping against each other, rubbing back and forth, and
our moans just kept getting louder and louder. And we just kept pumping.
Why is it I can still see this so clearly but I can't remember one detail of
that room we were in? Please, just a picture, a chair, anything! But all I
could see was the two of us, bucking and squirming against each other,
hearing the panting and the moaning and the pleasure being almost too much
to bear. I could feel the heat between our legs, the wetness that made our
smooth areas slick and slippery and only beckoned us further. It was too
much. I wasI
All I remember was a flash of light. At that point I woke up and screamed
"I love you!" When I came to my senses, I looked at the clock. Three a.m.
My body was covered in sweat. I tried telling myself it was just a dream,
but when I felt the heat and the wetness between my legs, I was terrified.
Too terrified to sleep.
For the last six days, I've maybe only gotten a few hours sleep. At this
rate I'm going to start going crazy.
Well, this is where you came in. I'm still sitting on my bed wondering what
I'm going to do. I can't tell the others can I? No, that's crazy.
Suddenly, my mind drifts back to when I was trapped with Sailor Neptune in
Queen Nepheria's dream realm. I can hear her, crystal clearly, as the words
she spoke come back to me.
"You and Usagi are good friends. Just like Haruka and me."
I hold my head in my hands as the words I spoke once again cross my lips.
"Oh, I wish you hadn't said that."
Then, I hear my door close. I look up and Usagi is standing by the door. I
look away quickly. I still can't face her.
"What what are you doing here? I thought you'd left."
Usagi looks away. There's an awkward silence that almost makes me want to
scream. I can't take much more of it. Then she speaks.
"That dream you had. It was about me wasn't it?"
I turn and look at her in shock."I was the girl you were with, wasn't I?"
I look away. I can feel the tears welling up and I can hear I my voicecracking.
"W-whatmakes you think that?"
"Come on, Rei. The whole time we were here you ignored me. You've been
avoiding me all week. What other explanation is there?"
"M-maybe I just didn't want to see you, okay?" I was still looking away. I
know she's looking right through me, but I have to say something, "Maybe I'm
tired of h-having you around."
I can feel my heart breaking to say those words. I can't hold back the
tears any more. Then I feel her sitting on the bed, next to me.
"Rei, look at me.""Usagi, please don't""Look at me! Please."
I turn to her. The tears are streaming down my face and I can barely speak
anymore. I look at Usagi and she looks like she's about to cry too.
"Damn it Usagi! What do you want from me?!"
"I want you to tell me how you feel!"
I can't take it anymore. I throw my arms around her and start crying.
"II don't kn-now how I feel," I tell her between sobs, "That's why that
d-dream scares me s-so mu-huch."
That's all I can say. I'm crying too hard to speak anymore. Usagi holds me
close and I can tell by her voice that she's crying too.
"Ssssssshhhhhhh. It's all right. Don't hold back. Just let it out.
Everything's fine."
She never leaves my side the whole time I'm crying. She just sits there
hugging me. Even when Grandpa and Yuichiru come in she wisks them off.
"She'll be fine," she tells them, "She just needs a good cry right now."
When I finally stop, I look at the clock. I've been crying for an hour and
a half!"Sometimes it's just something we all need," Usagi tells me, "And take it
from me, you really needed that. How do you feel."
"Actually, I feel a lot better. Thank you."
"Good. Now, tell me about this dream."She giggles."Was I good?"
I have to giggle a bit myself. After a week of misery and an hour and a
half of crying, it feels good to laugh again.
"Actually, as far as girls go, you were great. I just wonder if I was anygood."
"Explain."
So I tell her everything about the dream, right down to the last detail.
Every dirty game we played, every nasty little act that we performed. The
more I tell her the easier it gets, although she's very wide-eyed at theend.
"Well, thatcertainly wasvivid.""Wasn't it though?"
"So what do you think this means? You don't really think you're in love
with me. I mean, it was just a dream Rei."
"I know, I know. But I haven't been able to get it out of my head for a
week. I keep seeing us together in the back of my mind."
"Maybe you just needed to talk about it. To get it off your chest.""Maybe."
She lifts my chin and our eyes meet."Hey, are you all right now?"
"I hope so. But you can go now if that's what you're wondering. I've
bothered you for long enough."
"It's never a bother helping you Rei. But I'd better go. I'm meetingMamoru."
"Areare you going to tell him about this?"Usagi thinks for a moment.
"Should I really tell him anything at this point?""Nono, I suppose not."
She gets up and walks to the door, but as she reaches it, she stops andturns.
"Was I really that good?"
I look away for a moment and turn back to her and chuckle.
"Yeahyeah, you were really that good.""Wow.""Usagi?"She turns back to me.
"I love you Usagi.""What does that mean?"I turn away again and look back.
"It means I love you."Usagi smiles at me."I love you too Rei."
She walks out of the room and I have to smile, for the first time in a week.
That night, I sleep like a baby. The end
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